Slumdog Millionaire

Wow! What a great movie! Riveting and all that jazz. I am not sure what I expected but what I received made me laugh and cry and I really felt like I could empathize with the lives of the characters.

The characters were built really well and I felt like they were my own friends living back in my own personal slum! Lol. Well it wasn't called a slum, moreso a hood. I really felt anger towards those trying to do the underdog wrong and I sprang up with joy when he finally won. Detailing his life with every question was sheer genius.

I can see why it won best picture. I just can't believe how on the late train I was. Two thumbs up!
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I'm happy

It's crazy how much things can change in a year. I am now officially in a relationship. One that started over a year ago and had a rocky start. He's younger than I am by one year and violates some of my rules but they say rules are meant to be broken so here we are. I don't think I've ever felt this way about someone before. We spend all of our time together and even after only 3 hours apart we miss each other. He's a great guy, he's in my med school class and also has a master's degree beyond his bachelor's. He's funny, charismatic, caring and really eager to be a better him. I'm excited by all of that and for the first time publicly I am saying I am excited about the possibility of us. I am not sure where, how far, how long it's going but I know that today we are happy and we both want to be here and really that is what matters, for tomorrow is not promised...
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Day57 of summer

Summer is almost over, NOOOOOOOOO! It's the last summer of my life! It's been a good one tho, so I cannot complain. Today I am having lunch with a former classmate who left and decided to go to law school instead of remaining in medical school. I think he is now considering B school. I'm sure at some point he'll settle on something that is goin to make him happy.

This past weekend boo and I went to New York for the 4th of July holiday. It was a great time! I think we grew in our relationship and we had a good time also. That was my first time going. It was a rough ride in and back but buses from DC to NY are cheap and frequent. Next time we won't be taking the bootleg Chinatown bus tho, we'll have to upgrade for the extra $5 each way. Great learning experience and lodging was free because we were staying with one of my friends from undergrad who lives in the city and goes to Columbia Law school.

The week before new york MTP was in town. She is about to become a nun so she is touring the US visiting friends before she goes in and makes the committment on August 29. That is a super big deal. I am proud of her and I think she is amazing for having that kind of dedication and responding to God's call. Way to go Mary!

summer has begun: week 1

tuesday-

we finished exams today.  one written exam on renal and reproductive systems, a lab exam on reproductive anatomy and a third lab exam on the histology of a wide array of systems including respiratory, renal, GI, and reproductive.  i feel relieved and renewed.  i have just completed my first year of medical school!  all i can say is praise Jesus!  i never would have imagined a year ago that this is where i would be.  i prayed and prayed then for a medical school to give me a chance and for my dreams to come true but i never imagined i would be here.  it's amazing how God's plan for your life can supersede anything you ever imagined for yourself and how he always seems to answer your prayers on His time while teaching you life lessons on how to be more Christlike on the way.  Today I finished my first year of medical school.  What feels like the end of a journey is truly the beginning.

wednesday-

my summer job began today, we had orientation at 9am.  i went to bed at 5am.  you can only imagine how i felt all day.  i am excited about having work for the summer and the job i have was my first choice, so i'm blessed but 9am really?  now you knew we were going to go out and party last night.  so i made it through, came home and slept and then went to dinner with my girl bp.  it was a nice reprieve from everything, a nice way to begin the first day of my summer break.  last night the 3rd year medical students threw a bbq for us as a congratulations and everyone got pretty toasted.  funny when your friend texts you at 8:30pm asking if you are drunk and your response is "i'm sobering up now."  She thought that was hilarious, i guess it was.  today was the first day of summer.  :)

thursday-

had the day off today but that doesn't mean i rested.  i tried to remain the bed as long as possible but people kept calling me!  haters!  i ran errands returning things i did not like or that did not fit that i bought during my online shopping spree a few weeks prior.  it took me several hours to do all of that  and i was exhausted by the end but i still had to do laundry.  so it was a long night and i have to get up in the morning for more training.

friday-

this morning i arrived at training late.  how embarrassing.  oh well, i made it, more than i can say for some others.  it last like 3 hours and then i went to lunch with boo bear and my girl fs.  sad thing is he and i got into a fight and that ruined the walk over to lunch.  we're both stressed and everything came across as offensive.  we eventually both apologized and had a decent time on lunch together.  our schedules are no longer exactly the same so any time we get to spend together is cherished.  fighting is not what's up.  after leaving campus, fs and i went to the mall in bethesda and while i returned some stuff, she bought up all the stores, lol.  we then went to meet up with one of my friends from undergrad who is pre-med and just finished a post bacc at upenn.  he was in the area visiting and he asked me if he could stay at my place for the weekend.  we hung out on U street and i found a new wine spot.  so excited about it, they have flamenco on sunday night so i will definitely be checking that out.

saturday-

today i went to the holocaust museum with my roommate, the exhibit lasted about 3+ hours which i was not expecting and i was completely famished by the time it was over.  we then ate at a mom and pop place that had decent burgers and fries.  i plan to go back for a shake and some red velvet cake sometime this summer.  afterwards i ran errands with bp and another friend who'd come into town (also from college).  he just got in to business school at wharton so he is celebrating that while i celebrate the end of first year.  drinking was a must!  we started with mojitos but i'm not the biggest fan so i stuck to wine.  bp and i love a great glass so it was nice way to chill and get a buzz.  we spent a lot of time figuring out what we were going to do and then just stayed in.  i enjoyed the night, we played some games i've never played and chilled.  unfortunately, mr business school got sick and threw up all over the couch.  sigh.  cleaning it, it got all under my nails.  not my favorite part of the night but always willing to help out a friend.

sunday- 

worked 8 hours today welcoming the incoming first years.  tomorrow they begin a six week program that will better prepare them to matriculate and show the admissions committee that they deserve their spot in medical school.  as a 2008 participant of that program i believe i have a lot to give to the program and its participants.  let's see how it goes.

it's been a long time...

my first year of medical school is coming to a close and I remember when I first arrived here on May 18th.  I didn't have any idea of the journey I was about to embark on but I've grown, matured and learned so much since then.  I remember two years ago when I really wanted to move to DC because I'd wanted to live here for quite some time and all of the job opportunities I had simply weren't cutting.  In hind sight of course I know it was because that wasn't my time to come here and God had a better plan for me.  He knew that I'd end up here for medical school and it would be the right time for me to live here.  Additionally, entering medical school when I was 25 felt like I was late in the game.  All of my other friends who were pre-med had already begun their medical school journeys and I, the one who knew I wanted to be a doctor at age 11, was still on the pre-med road.  It hurt but it was more humbling than I could ever imagine.  I look back on that as a blessing.  I was able to grow and learn so much about the world that currently give me so much perspective and wisdom to fight the med school fight.  This year has not been easy but just as I fought to get here, I am fighting to stay and every day I am one step closer to May 12, 2012- the date of my eminent graduation!

positive saturday

i am in the mood to count my blessings.  to realize how far i've come in life and really take a second to reflect on who i am.  amidst turmoil it is so easy to lose sight of who we are and the larger picture.  so here it goes, let's count these blessings:

1. i am no longer working at that job!  woo hoo!  praise the Lord for that!  If I thought about that once a day I'd never feel sad again, lol.  I was so miserable so many days there.  I felt unappreciated and I was haunted by the desire to go back to school to pursue my dream.  conflict resolution sessions and working late i do not miss!  yes!
2. being in medical school.  just having the opportunity to pursue the dream i set out to pursue when i was 11 years old.  that is crazy to me.  i just have to sit back thank God because He really does mean every promise He makes for our lives.  He comes through, maybe not when you think it's time, but when it is the right time, He steps in to move the appropriate hurdles and obstacles.
3. I live in DC!  Ever since college I've wanted to live in DC, now I am here.  I honestly don't have enough time to explore it like I'd like, but I am doing it little by little with time.  Being in school makes it hard to get out and do every sight seeing thing, but over the course of  the 4 years, I am sure I will have my fair share of good times in DC aka chocolate city.
4. I have amazing friends!  The people in my life who I can truly call friends are really always there for me and really do think the best of me.  I thank God for putting these people in my life because He speaks so clearly through into the situations I am going through in my life and the worth they say they see in me that I know only God can see.
   
5. God is not through with me yet.  All of the changes I continue to face let me know that I am not going to stay the same and I will continually move toward being the best person I can be, the person God has destined me to be.

i am sure there are many many more, but that provided enough of a pick me up for me to stop.  maybe i will continue the list later in the week.  yay positive saturday!

7 whole days

it's been seven days since my last post. sorry for the delay. let's see what has transpired since i last wrote. this weekend was pretty much a study weekend, nothing special went on. we had an exam on monday and i think it went ok, not fantastic but not as bad as the last one by any means. i think we get them back tomorrow, so wish me luck.

monday i was so happy to be able to just chill and i tried to catch up on the pile of 15 magazines i haven't been able to read since i've been in school for the past 4 months. i got through 6, so i broke the pile down but i couldnt' get through all of them. i also watched a ton of wedding shows, which was funny. seeing how much people spend on their wedding and the couples and stuff is good for giving perspective and helping me realize i am not ready for that stage of life. i'd really like to get married, but i know that won't be happening any time soon. especially since there aren't any real prospects right now.

last thursday night i went to see the tyler perry movie at midnight and i enjoyed it! sanaa lathan was acting her tail off! i'd recommend you go see it.

a compliment

S:  "i like your shoes"

me:  "thank you"

J:  "girl, you know she always be lookin jazzy"

S:  "hahaha, yea girl, she do always be lookin jazzy"

me:  "ya'll silly, thank you"

last week two classmates complimented me while I was walking back to class from the restroom.  It was really nice, I felt myself get a little more pep in my step and a smile sneak onto my face.  I realize how much compliments, smiles and nice gestures can do for you.

Lately, I've been on a super struggle.  Feeling like my brokeness is inhibiting my ability to be fashion forward and my body is inhibiting me from working with what I got.  In addition, I have been ultra afraid of rejection and how people see me.  

I have wonderful friends, who are encouraging and really do care about me and think the best of me, so they have spent energy letting me know I am a child of God and the Bible says I am fearfully and wonderfully made.  I have to remind myself of that often, because in a competitive field like medicine, you can end up comparing yourself to everyone and anyone all the time and in every aspect of your life.

my plan: take life one day at a time, and just pray for the ability to overcome this period of low self-esteem and inner turmoil.  ya'll bare with me.